wats wrong?

i tink im hungry and im supposed to be hungry, but at the same time, i dun feel hungry...

ITS V V UNCOMFORTABLE.. tat feeling drifting between feelin full and hungry..

mayb its call lost of appetite? i tink i shld eat, but at e same time i dun realli feel like eating...

hmmm....

interactive

THIS IS DAMN COOL

emotional...

i got no clue wat she is singing about.

but i felt v emotional after hearing this song. mayb because its from the koizora drama. T_T

license to EAT ! WAHAHAHAH

very nice song..

确认过眼神 我遇上对的人

anyway i have been officially given the license to EAT!!! no need to wait for another 28 days!!! yea the ban has been lifted, at least when im not at home!!

meat~~ meat~~ how i miss u..

recession? depression?

here it is again.. after newspaper reading thoughts.. hahaha

a quick quote: A recession is when your neighbour loses his job. A depression is when you lose your job.

well as we all know, we dun seem to be facing high unemployment compared to the last recession.. or am i wrong

anyway i forgot to take a pic of smth interesting. i jus saw a notice pasted at the lift lobby. its a job advertisement for a bakery nearby which jus opened. mayb im a mountain turtle, but its my first time seeing job advertisement at lift lobby.

to end it off, our IR is launching a recruitment drive.. its target? e retired, unemployed, women who wish to return to workforce, and mature workers!

first benefit of a what ppl perceived to be socially disruptive. MORE JOBS!

i thought...

i had a 5 day sch week..



WHAT HAPPEN?

When I fall in love..

When I fall in love
It will be forever
Or I'll never fall in love

In a restless world
Like this is
Love is ended before it's begun
And too many
Moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun

When I give my heart
It will be completely
Or I'll never give my heart

And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you

sweet~~

我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹
幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老
幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老
WO~小酒窝长睫毛 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老

what a sight

saw some v v young children walking in sch compound, near the labs..

those were the days when guys one row, girls one row, hold hands and walk..

fast forward a couple of years, the govt probably gotta try to make them to come tgt, date, get married and have babies..

i suddenly got this urge to come up with a virtual profile, u know when need to enter ur names, add, email, bday and so on.. with 2 IT modules that im taking this sem, e more scary internet seem to be, those data mining n profiling of user IS SO SCARY.. a tracking company that tracks your internet usage might know more abt u den u do!!!

tats v v scary... dun u feel exposed?

what will happen if...

all our data and technology are linked together under one network?? all your daily internet usage(from online purchases to your blogs to your social network) and cellphone usage pattern can be observed, all these data can essentially work out your personality and in fact know you better than you know yourself !!!

and.. if a someone managed to hack into the network and get his hands on these data, how scary it would be.

just some thoughts after watching the movie "eagle eye", it is a very interesting movie. it shows how good a computer can be managing the massive amount of data, and also how inflexible it can be, being restricted to its AI and pre-programmed set of actions.

have u ever wonder...

1) if u write down ur way of life in quotes, enforce it to your newborn child, brainwashing ur child that whatever inside is the truth and nothing but the truth, expects ur child to strictly adhere to practices that are written inside, they may truly believe thats how life works if you are convincing enough..

and b4 you know, u have created a new tradition/culture if you child decided to pass it down to the next and next generation with ever increasing convincing reasons of your way of life..

note: u may try to bury it in some place, when ppl generations later dig it out, they may go "WOW! so that is our tradition"

2) multi-racialism work so well in sg, what we onli acheive racial harmony among ourselves. a grp of huge numbers of foreigners (especially those that don't belong to the chinese, malay, indians, or westerners) are sometimes treated like aliens where their living quarters are a treat. someone forgot to tell them, the category is others, not westerners. or that the infrastructure that we are using might be the work of these "aliens" which "threaten" your neighborhood.

or that, you might actually be more of a safety threat by stirring up emotions for protecting the cost of your ?

if they really wanna threaten you they can simply forgot to add a certain foundation pillar to the one you are using right now.

we are a mutli-racial country. we have racial harmony. do we?

3) technology may solve problems, but at times solving one problem may lead to 10 other more complex problems because you gain additional knowledge? or that by improving life, technology also makes you more lazy at times?

is that why ignorance is bliss?

im not trying to flame anyone, or criticizing anyone. jus some random thoughts after seeing wats happening. i admit i am guilty of the last 2 pts at times. but the first pt is something which i really thought is interesting.

whatever proof we have of our religion or culture or tradition, is something that is being passed down, in written form or in fact sometimes through word of mouth? when does humans know how to write or speak? jus because they do a certain set of practices or some journey with additional ability to write and speak, they become our religion/tradition/culture?

ignorance is bliss, if i choose to ignore i wun have these questions.

CULTURAL ASSERTION!!!

got a first hand experience of helpless-ness as written in one of my readings about SG Society.

im facing CULTURAL ASSERTION!!! by a culture under the Chi-Mal-Ind-Others category that the govt imposed!! the thing abt making a chinese feel more chinese that he would otherwise feel..

i experience first hand what is the true meaning of tradition..

tradition - a set of irrational practices based on unproven/ridiculous/out of the world reasons, that you are expected to follow w/o understanding.. an attempt to prove that tradition is ridiculous will earn you a big fat slap in your face that you are rude and ignorant..

and it goes on..

IT JUS MAKE NO F***ING SENSE TO ME!!! STOP IMPOSING YOUR IDEAS ON ME!!! IM NOT UR F***ING PUPPET!!! SO WHAT IF IM NOT FOLLOWING OUR FORE-FATHER TRADITION, WE ARE MOVING FORWARD NOT BACKWARD!!!!

ARGH!!! i declare myself mentally unstable.. at least for e next 45 days..

sadly, i gotta be tat stupid puppet that have no life of his own, with no chance of rebuttal..

HMMMMmm or shld i be leading a life of my own, go against the odds and risk offending my parents...

im hungry....

and my sanity is hanging by a small tiny weeny thread...

imagine feeding a tiger with only vegetables... or a shark with only seaweeds..

consolation: at least its not like removing drugs from a drug addict.. not yet..

traditions...

how relevant can traditions be??

im still not very convinced why traditions are that important..

yah yah.. they are reflective of our roots.. jus because our fore-fathers are not born in singapore means we must look back to their roots, why can we make our own roots??

the competitive nature of the time now, compared to the past, can these traditions still work? the inflexibility, inconvenience and often irrational practices are beyond my understanding.. yah im a ignorant brat.. but then can anyone prove me wrong at how these traditions can be so inflexible and at e end of the day, u wonder if e "opportunity cost" that you are paying is abit high?

can tradition allow us to survive in this competitive world? yah im the new generation of ppl whu are individualistic.. but, from another pt of view, im not the only one in this world! time dun stop for me, and definitely wun put the whole world on hold just for me so that i could get back into the survival game on a level playing field!!!

i sometimes feel ashamed of myself for having these thoughts recently, as if im devoid of emotions. but i cant understand nor can i find reasons why wud u wanna find ways to put ur life on hold when someone pass away. the world still rotates and ur life still carries on. i know its emotionally traumatic but i feel we should instead find ways to carry on, to gather the courage and strength to overcome this barrier, our life does not stop..

i gotta write this long post to vent my frustration, although i shld really be studying. im facing a high possibility of unable to complete revising b4 my test. no im not an elite, im jus a normal ordinary student, trying to understand what is happening to my life.

I NEED A GOD DAMN BREATHER!!! and its of high irony that sch become my best excuse to get one. GOD DAMN THESE DATELINES AND AMOUNT OF WORK!!!! ARGH!!!

har.. feel much better after venting.. i tink i can finally study in a positive mind now..

will i see a rainbow soon?

bad things just seem to be sticking near to me for some reason or another..

woke up feelin lazy.. 2 hrs later den wat i planned to do, with the "i dont wanna study i dont wanna study" feel..

so after some fooling ard, finally managed to get myself to try starting at ard 2pm.. onli to find my com facing a breakdown. YESH!! i still haven figured out wats wrong but i tink its the lan card.. or rather tats e best reason i cud find.. trying all sort of configuration to find out wats wrong.. and.. couldnt fix it! my com cannot connect to the internet and i find it hard to concentrate. i keep wanna find ways to fix it. haiz..

den i got phone call.. bad news again.. went out..

den by e time i got back, evening le.. still trying to figure out wats wrong with my com.. GAVE UP!!!

in short, i did less den 2 chapters today, intended to revise my lect for tml, re-attempt tat assign, and finish 4 chpts..

wat am i doing!!!

i must be punished for waking up late with a not wanting to study attitude.. (im trying to be optimistic, if not i might get v v frustrated..)