heavy thoughts..

earlier watched one jap drama.. there was this girl with suicidal tendency.. her doctor tried to make her fall in love to help the girl.. the doctor den make her "die" once by disappearing and make her observe the guy tat fall in love with her.. he wanna let her see how e guy feel so devastated to the extend that he is like a walking dead.. it was to show her the meaning of her existence in that guy's life..

i know its such fictional but it leads me to think.. do we have to go to such extend to prove our existence.. but den again.. if there isnt someone who feel "dead" without u, can you proclaim your existence in this world? isnt it interesting to be able to just disappear and observe the ppl ard u, and know whu is truly affected by ur existence..

hahaha mayb im too free thats why negative thoughts seem to be flooding in.. here is something light hearted (although its quite a sad but still its a nice song..)

cash "frozen"

ARGH!!! amazingly lost my pin which i used for 4-5 years!!! as a result of tat memory loss.. i gotta reset my pin..

as a result, i cannot use the only card that i have.. cannot sign cannot draw.. my $$ is all frozen in the bank!!! feel so bankrupt right now..

cannot even go out alone.. feel so confined in my own home.. its a SATURDAY and i shld be out there!!!! bleah..

feel so sian.. almost no returns from any of e internship applied.. looks like i gotta look for some "Other" jobs.. e onli consolation is catching terminator tml.. can they terminate my competitors too??

Dear 21st~

Although it was slightly last min, but managed to plan 2 surprise for dear.. hahaha.. wanted to make her gan dong till cry but only managed to make her speechless.. looks like my power not high enough.. in fact i mess up so much..

the day (or rather night) started at marina barrage.. decided to purchase a photo frame and put a picture of us in it and give her as a present.. very last min decision and i end up running everywhere to get it done.. plus a lovely gift box from prints so that she can store many more memories.. however e wind was kinda too strong at the barrage to light a candle, smth which i obviously overlooked.. haiz.. ended up in e car..


after which she was touched to tears by all the things that has happen so far for her birthday.. (which was why i tot i could make her touched to tears all by myself.. smth which i tink i overestimated myself.. hahaha.. but i still made her speechless :P)

she wanted to catch Night at Museum 2.. so i brought her to GV Gold Class at vivo.. haha.. was my first time watching there too.. and was the first time i turn her speechless.. she couldnt realli formulate one sentence when she realise it.. hehe.. the seats are so comfy, gt ur private table, and a button to call e staff to attend to ur needs.. like business class airline sia.. but the only downside is the seats are rather far away compared to the usual seats with e armrest up.. the movie wasnt tat great, but the experience is.. too bad its slightly too dark for pictures..


the menu.. classy hor..


the envelop that comes with the tickets..

after we went window shopping ard vivo, brought her to have a nice candle light dinner up the cable car.. she turned speechless again as it was her first time up there.. not to mention having dinner up in e sky..




dear enjoying her soup..


e beautiful birthday girl...

the dinner was so-so, but the experience was not bad.. but mayb due the to wet weather b4 our dinner, the air was abit humid and stuffy and the ventilation wasnt very good.. not to mention the way it shakes at times makes eating slightly difficult.. den for the first time, i made my dear felt uncomfortable.. haiz.. i feel so bad for not considering that she might not be able to withstand the shakiness of e cable car..

we den took a stroll dwn to the henderson waves.. wanted to give her the present there, but den.. gt so much ppl and noise there.. haiz.. shld have given her back at e restaurant which is more romantic.. so after sweating for a while, we make our way back home b4 i gave her e present outside her door.. i was so glad to see the way she smiled upon receiving it.. hehe..

not a very perfect day.. but den, her smile comforted me for not doing my planning well.. haiz.. nvm, this leaves me room for improvement right?? hehe..

Birthday Chalet

Advanced Happy Birthday to my Dear~~ (dear.. i managed to blog this post b4 your actual day on tues.. haha.. )

it was very tiring.. preparing for e chalet and the decor stuff.. but it was all worth it after seeing how much she enjoyed it.. just look at her smile..


was quite sad that my camera didnt produce nice images.. was quite blur.. haiz.. like abit ruin her day.. BUT THEN.. at least there are clear and sharp images like this..


a shot taken after we changed.. hehe..


den we watched dvd till early morning.. everyone is dead tired after tat.. its a pity tat we onli had a nite.. i would love to have one more night in the cosy chalet..

den on sat, after her tuition, we went to have a leg massage.. hahaha


tml gotta go cake hunting, and tues will be e "big" day.. getting excited.. its going to be a long 2 sweet day.. wahahahhaa..

zooooo

went to zoo with family.. its shooting time!!




the beautiful white tigers.. gt a lot of unfocused shots though.. this is one of e better ones..


one nice yet unfocused picture..


while my family is looking at some erm.. animals? i found myself taking pictures like this.. icy cold coca cola.. hahaha.. BUT!!! my dad came by, wipe away e water vapours den said so many water vapour how to have clear shot.. stunned!! i tink my face say it all becos my sis and my mom was laughing non stop.. my sis say "he want to take e water vapour one!!" my mom even commented "u old alr la.. dunno wat young ppl want.."


my bro.. take picture so seh.. hahaha


my sis say.. de emo kangaroo.. his front view was obstructed by some shrubs, and he jus refuse to turn his head for e camera..


stunning beauty...


another shot..


while waiting for e boat to set off..


fighting for food..

had a rather fun time shooting.. jus tat.. towards e end gt abit tired, not enuff slp i guess.. no inspiration on composition of the picture.. so the last qtr of the visit practically didnt take any picture..

urge...

its moments like this which makes me have the urge to go shoot..

hunt..

was trying to hunt for birthday cake with my dear ystd..

we didnt managed to get one, but we gt 3 dresses instead.. hahahaha.. i always think its very fun to go shopping with dear.. a v different experience when shopping alone or with guys.. hahaha lookin forward for more shopping sessions during this hols..

was booking the catering ystd when i realise, its onli a week left to the chalet!!! need to start preparing le.. looks like i need to plan more time going out instead of hiding at home and flipping newspaper..

old...

feel like those middle-aged uncles.. a very bad feeling..

flipping newspapers for a few hours everyday.. wondering if i can get the job (intern), weighing my options, whether to wait for the application to be closed, or take up some other irrelevant jobs..

damned! feel rather useless sitting at home.. but at e same time i am enjoying the freedom of time i am having now.. such a mixed feeling.. i guess this is wat happens when u gt too much time and u start to tink of too much stuff..

fine.. i shall do something meaningful.. i shall go work on my game which was stalled for so long.. (if that is smth worth mentioning for my future job applications..)

hope...

hope i can get tat intern..

realli dun wanna waste my holiday doing some unrelated work.. but tat freaking application close date is 10 june!!! cant decide wat to do.. wait for the fateful date, or just look for any other job now..

well.. in the mean time i shld realli try to slim down.. i feel tat im not having enuff determination and perseverance.. let me be mentally strong~! mayb i shld buy some realli smaller fit clothes.. hopefully tat will motivate me to slim dwn.. hahaha..

horrible..

finally finish fixing up my com.. its been a horrible experience.. esp with vista..

now even my card reader is going on strike.. argh..

still haven gt any news abt the internship.. looks like i can pretty much forget abt it.. haiz.. hopefully this is nt a "rehearsal" for next year..