new yr resolution...

hmm although its quite earli (still fri nite to me.. when i did dis post), but tml is aready new yr eve so i guess i can be forgiven for having such an earli wish for my coming 2006..

as much as i dun wan to.. tml most likely will be a loner nite.. not tat i am not used to it but yah it jus sucked.. ever since i gt leave on thurs n today.. i received nth but bad news.. first i kanan extra n gt to do duty clerk next weekend n on e 26... kinda half expected it but still quite sad.. den today heard tat i will be doing office duty on fridays.. tat means my fridays are going to be looooong...

ystd morning when i received e news of me having to do duty clerk.. my reaction was quite unexpected.. instead of e usual groaning n stuff.. i had a rather quiet reaction.. probably becos i told myself tat i am "not in a office, am not doing a 8-5 job, am not doing a slack job n definitely, am not going to enjoy any of my remainin 15 mnths" it was kinda like those days back in e trainee life.. so now instead of serve n fark off.. i guess i hav to suffer n fark off..

which is a rather sad thing.. my frds are enjoying thier life after e gruesome training tat we went thru.. for me? i had a pretty bad fall, injured my hand which till now is not e usual self, and haf to go back for re-training, posted to a tense office environment.. if it was something xiong, maybe at e end of my service i still can sae i gain smth.. i might be fitter n hav a better shape n slimer.. now.. in office where eating is everyone's hobby except for me.. tat seem kinda hard..

guess i gt to be more hardowkring in going for runs n such.. but.. haiz.. i duno.. life seem stuck up dis yr.. felt like kanna jinxed every moment of my life.. something bad has always happen.. fine i had my own share of gd luck but tat was always followed by prolonged jinx... if in order to hav gd luck i hav to suffer so much.. i rather hav a simple life.. smoked out in e world of my own..

which is why my new yr resolution came.. dis morning after wat happen dese few days tat totally spoil my new yr mood.. tml doesnt even felt like an eve.. but more like 3 days left b4 going back to e "battlefield"

i jus hope my nxt yr would be a smooth one.. no gd fortunes is fine.. i dun wanan be jinxed like wat i am dis yr.. i can giv up abt luck in my love life (which is quite dwn anyway.. not tat it has ever improved).. all i wan is to be me, myself.. n a life not plagued by bad luck..

:: broke ::

thnx goodness.. over e christmas i found my drawer missing over 200 plus.. tok abt thnxsgiving.. more like money go no come..

Quote..

jus saw something real interesting on tv n tot tta i wanna share it here..

Whats e best invention from dis century for women?
its e handphone cos it doubles as an personal tracking device..

hmm how true is tat?? go fig it urself..

fishing by non-fishers on boxing day...

today marks e end of CHRISTMAS season.. aww.. aint it jus sad tat dis lovely day is gone..

anyway today instead of e traditional tearing of wrapping paper from our presents (we usually do it e nite we gt it anyway..) we (sy, dh, qf n low) went to ubin to fulfill our long lost wish.. we said it duno how many donkey years ago tat we wanna go dere but end up we onli went today..

at first we want to fish dere.. so we bought e neccesary stuffs, brought snacks, drinks n went dere.. after riding on e bike for duno how long we found a spot.. a rocky one.. being tired of hunting for place, we decide to jus fish dere.. and like wat non-fishers would do.. we start to prepare e hooks n prepare to throw into e obviously rocky place.. do i even nid to mention our hook gt caught by e rocks n it seem like we r jus throwing pieces of fish into e sea..

aww.. doesnt he look like a pro?? look at tat hot cover!!!

at e supermarket, if i not wrong, we didnt bring cards.. tat prompt me into saying "hey latest issue gt poker cards n gt e hot dawn yeo in it" when paying, although all 4 others start complaining abt e price n sae wat useless n stuff.. it ended up as a prized possesion.. do i even nid to mention the hot poker cards wif ppl like jamie teo n jamie yeo and denise keller n steph song.. we end up playing daidee dere..

do i even nid to sae wat distract us during our game?? haha sry for e poor quality of pic but HEY IF U WANT THEM GO GET IT URSELF!!!

at end of e day we head back to changi beach for a quick shower b4 heading off.. hehe was slping thruout.. v v tired.. and wait.. tml n day after next going to work late!!!! tat onli make me more tired!!

oh yeah and my sandals broke.. haiz.. but den it has serve me well n has been wif me for a v long time.. time to get a new one.. anyone gt any recomendations?? tot of getting one of my fav brand adidas but its not easy to find one..

in memory of my lovely sandals..

haiz.. christmas over.. to conclude it all, its quite a nice christmas for me.. but i hav 2 regrets though.. one, i spent most of my christmas wif guys (do i even wanna mention tat almost gay party on 24 again??) and 2ndly i didnt take enuff pics!!! after a hard laboured organised class gathering we actualyl 4got to take a class pic tgt.. wtf..!!! haiz.. wasted.. when will e next one be.. (did i mention dis is like 2 or 3 yrs since e last gathering??)

last but not least.. HAPPY BOXING DAY.. (shall leave e new yr greetings for e coming weekend if not i nth to blog le.. and yeah.. plus pray tonite liverpool win and total goals of e match shall be 3..)

from last nite..

erm now looking at last nite post.. kinda duno wat i was toking.. wtf was e topic abt sia.. anyway doesnt really matter..

last nite was e first time i eat off ham n turkey in whole.. i mean cut off from e whole thing.. in fact i tink it might be mine first time eating turkey.. (not tat i really noe how to differentiate) haha.. it was quite an experience..

in a almost all gay environment (roger brought his gf n thus making it a less gay environment wif one gal in all guy place) we eat, tok cock n not 4getting e 2 clowns zunkai n shengyuan trying to mix some drinks n torturing themselves wif extreme disgustin products..

and our 2 failed attempt to make a rocket off fire sparks.. in e process dmging 3 lighters..

and the clown at work again, wif sy plucking off many signs for god knows wat purpose.

other den tat really nth much..

oh yah i remember la.. its e first time i gone to church during xmas period.. tat explains last nite topic.. hehe.. darryl told us we would be in for some eye candy.. and in fact.. yes.. it is indeed onli "some" if not few..

haha tonite gt another one more time.. haiz.. tiring sia.. o.o

di yi ci..

has been a llong time since i update so late.. its nearing 3 now n i jus gt home abt 15 mins ago... guess whu i met? e man giving out e newspaper one.. duhz..

anywa feeling damn slpy.. head heavy..

will update abt today soon.. probably tml..

RAFT event at the HOOTERS

haha wat a nite.. after dragging myself to e event (i was forced to pay 65 dollars for it), i find myself.. okie la wasting some time..

but after e whole thing.. looking back, it was quite an experience.. with waitress wearing shorts (can see thier beautiful legs) n mini shirts (seem to be bulging at u noe where) serving u drinks.. e food was great.. spaghetti, fries, spring rolls, onion rings, ribs, brownies.. e menu look ordinary but e food was awesome..

hehe and after e boys had some drink, one table begin to ask e hooter girls to take grp photo wif them. maybe i am sua gu but they dun seem shy n they pose real close to e boys.. oh did i mention they were my frds whu started it..

soon it became a trend in e resturant (yes it is a resturant not a pub unlike wat most of us tot) and many start taking photos wif the not-at-least photo shy waitress.. den it turn into couple shot.. (again it was started by my frds) n boy was i stunned when e waitress actually lean onto my friend during e photo shot.. den another frd of mine even had his hands on e waist.. haha okie.. tink if i sae somemore i going to become more sua gu.. (too bad i didnt bring my cam.. den maybe i might get a shot n hell outta experience it would be..)

eventually e event ended wif e 1st prize lucky draw, a slim vers of ps2 wif one additional control.. it was time for me to go home as i nid to go to office tml.. whereas e others had off.. haiz..

gt to prepare my uniform for now..

disappointment

liverpool oh liverpool.. dun tell me u r back to ur old ways.. 20 over shot attempt.. but 0 goals.. whereas sao paolo less den 10 shot oso score one.. wat is happening~??!!

anyway.. sian gt to prepare my uniform le.. really no mood.. esp after liverpool lost somemore..

nvm.. hope chelsea will lose..

Time flies..

last week, dis day, i was celebrating.. for a week i dun nid go back camp.. dun nid wake up so earli.. dun nid reach home so late..

now.. its aready a week later.. i noe xmas is jus ard e corner but i jus dun hav e happy mood.. y? cos tml hav to go back office.. not really a gd place to be in.. esp after i "disappear" last week.. definitely something gonna hit me hard tml..

argh.. jus no mood to do anything.. geez..

KING KONG

no wonder ppl sae.. "英雄难过美人关" cos tats exactly the way king kong died

haha.. lame watever.. but e movie is freaking great although its a hardcore 3hr show.. y do i sae so.. for one movie tix price u will get:

1) titanic.. e famous ship wreck movie, except dis ship is, well look breakable from e start.
2) beauty n the beast.. except there's no happy ending in dis one..
3) jurassic park.. boy how can we exclude dinosours in land of nowhere.. and those man eating insects n humogenous bugs.. not 4geting tat giant man eating worm tat u tot look like wyrms from ur rpg games..
4) The island.. if u remember dis lame plot which a guy n one chick trying to overcome thier fate as clones.. well dis is wat happen the chick kidnapped n protected by king kong is being saved by one script writer tat has no resemblence of one as he brave thru e jungles, carry guns, save ppl n of cos distract kong..
5) last but not least SPIDERMAN.. yes spiderman.. who could 4get tat scene of ur frdly neighbourhood spidy spinning off the aready fallen wtc tower.. except our main actor.. erm animal, fall off instead of spin off dis tower..

haha okie i may sound sarcastic but e movie really is great.. jus trying to play a fool above.. haha.. how to prove it?? well i dun mind watching it again.. its really worth watching it.. all shld go catch it..

enjoying my every bit of freedom

hehe.. v long no update blog liao.. cos i am enjoying my leave.. although i admit dere is dis "office" thingy bugging me at e back of my head.. wonder wat deeper shit will i get into next mon.

anyway today jus watch tong meng qi yuan by andy lau.. although i heard many of my frds sae it is not nice but to me i tink it is fantastic. okie e plot is absurd abt dis boy whu can suddenly grow old so fast.. but e underlying message is abt how important family is. and i tink it is a gd msg and is quite touching which i tink overwrite e lame plot of turning old.. i enjoy it quite a lot..

anyway today is already THURS!! omg.. how fast time flies.. mon is coming and how i dread tat.. its getting into me already.. as time passes by i felt i am running short of time. i want more time.. and and and.. argh.. jus feeling sick.. mon nid to go back office le.. bleahz

liverpool rocks!

muahahah.. 2nd on e table for e time being b4 man utd play thier match.. 2 goal by morientes.. haha both scoreless striker has scored le.. wooo..

unlike chelsea.. pui.. make me lose money.... if onli it is a draw.. haha..

anyway next week clearing leave loh.. haha super gt time..

restless..

its so sad tat everynite i felt so restless.. whenever i book out i felt relief.. n at nite b4 i slpt i felt pressure, so much so tat i wish i gt a shell to hide in jus like wat a turtle will do.. y am i so cowardly.. where's my self confidence.. y do i worry abt every single detail..

i really hate myself for being tat way.. speaking of which.. i hav always been in a comfort zone.. will i really survive out of it??

farewell...

today marks e end of our cbre gas course. more significantly, i marks e end of our days at soce.. i guess i would nv hav e chance to go back dere again.. it oso marks e final day of my comfort zone.. starting tml i hav to go to "battlefield" to fight a "war"

life would nv be e same again.. becoming e target board of someone senior.. being in a place where ppl will grumble n sulk n would nt be flexible n cooperate e slightest bit.. haiz.. dun even noe how to describe dis loathesome place..

anyway guess i jus hv to take it in my stride.. at e end of e day i will benefit from it.. cos i will come out of e "war" alive, in one single piece and plenty of experience.. lets jus hope i "live" to tell e tale of my "adventure"

pissed off..

today when i first enter e office, i was told to cover e office duty as mine was done by another person last week.. fine.. and so i tot i would be able to hands on finally cos i was totally unclear wat to do anyway..

den came my course mates telling me i hav to go for e sickening CBRE course.. gas gas gas!!! and so I TOLD MY HEAD I NID TO GO.. notice e words in bold.. yesh tats mine mistake which cause me to kanna screw till chao tao.. y?? cos i nv report to my chief clerk MINE IMMEDIATE SUPERIOR tat i hav to go when she herself is in e bloody same room when i sae tat i nid to leave.. when i told her i didnt noe i hav to report to her n tat report to head will do as head is overall ic, she screwed me saying i do not belong to e same room as e head and y do i report to her instead of MY IMMEDIATE SUPERIOR.. and even used my rank to screw me.. saying i shld noe dis procedere..

hey wait a moment?? wats my mistake?? i didnt go off silently, my frd noes, e head noes.. if it is abt e office duty, jus get one freaking guy to cover la.. at most next time i cover back if he really so gei gao.. wats e fuss over tat?? u mean dis kinda flexibility cant be achieved?? okie maybe it was my fault tat i didnt tell her and thus she hav to ASK where i am but hey once u ask ppl dere will tell u liao.. not tat u nid to go ard how many offices, how many ppl b4 u can get to noe where i am..

2ndly.. i am not officially in dere am i?? if i am, y do i hav to attend such a meaningless course?? y cant she jus take me off e course den?? nt forgetting wat she said last week.. when i gt appointment on mon afternoon n therapy on tues morning.. she asked my frd y i am always not ard.. DUHZ.. firstly not tat i request e therapy on e next morning.. den on wed when i sae i going to soce for my graduation ceremony on thurs n fri.. she said " ur hand oso cant march go dere for wat??" hey if i hav to power to alter all dis.. i wun be sitting in e office would i..

its freaking fustrating when u get a call n b4 u noe it, u get screwed big time for something like tat.. haiz.. jus lucky me to kanna aimed becos of dis.. my 1 yr 3 mnths wun be easy dere.. and abt me clearing leave... tink i can 4get abt tat idea too le.. dun tink it will be approved..

class gath.. gather.. (yawnz) ring...

hehe after ystd fruitful shopping trip to marina new opened youth zone i tot todays class gathering would be interesting too.. (i tok abt e marina thingy later on in dis post..)

however i was greatly disappointed.. even e meeting time was delayed.. wif our dear ah dai e busy guy whu got to book in at 2.. came abt 30 mins late.. definitely didnt help when i slpt onli abt 5 hrs last nite.. (yawnz..)

not tat when we get to ah tham hse things turn better.. e girls were dere to bake cookies.. n e boys?? dere to stone i guess cos i find myself doing tta couple of time.. waste of time?? not really cos i v long nv stone le.. hehe kinda miss tat feeling.. (yeah rite...)

anyway when age catches up, (ppl sae when ur age turns 2-, u start to feel time fly pass incredibly fast.. we are aready 19.. hitting e 2 mark soon..) class gathering definitely changed.. from outings to various places to hav fun, create havoc.. it has turned into makan sessions n tok cock sessions.. ( some even turn to mahjong session n baking session..) hey i not toking nonsense here.. jus how many times hav u heard tat "eh organise gathering lei.. v long no meet.. go where?? go makan loh.." at least i heard dis like duno how many times dis yr.. including one for e upcoming christmas.. and also.. u suddenly notice dis conversation/ speech always happen and nth is done at e end of it.. either none bothered if not jus no time..

hehe ystd went shopping at e marina youth zone.. actually didnt really intended to.. jus heard dere is a new mall dere n wanan take a look.. however end up shopping cos its jus real cool.. e shop attendents are young too.. hehe yes tats me.. looking at e attendents more den i look at e contents.. cant help it (i'm still single afterall.. :P *buaya*) some of them are really kawaii.. hehe..

hmm guess tat shall conclude e entry today.. (yawn..) boring boring day.. oh yeah.. PETER CROUCH HAS FINALLY SCORED!!! hahah.. cool~~