hmm although its quite earli (still fri nite to me.. when i did dis post), but tml is aready new yr eve so i guess i can be forgiven for having such an earli wish for my coming 2006..
as much as i dun wan to.. tml most likely will be a loner nite.. not tat i am not used to it but yah it jus sucked.. ever since i gt leave on thurs n today.. i received nth but bad news.. first i kanan extra n gt to do duty clerk next weekend n on e 26... kinda half expected it but still quite sad.. den today heard tat i will be doing office duty on fridays.. tat means my fridays are going to be looooong...
ystd morning when i received e news of me having to do duty clerk.. my reaction was quite unexpected.. instead of e usual groaning n stuff.. i had a rather quiet reaction.. probably becos i told myself tat i am "not in a office, am not doing a 8-5 job, am not doing a slack job n definitely, am not going to enjoy any of my remainin 15 mnths" it was kinda like those days back in e trainee life.. so now instead of serve n fark off.. i guess i hav to suffer n fark off..
which is a rather sad thing.. my frds are enjoying thier life after e gruesome training tat we went thru.. for me? i had a pretty bad fall, injured my hand which till now is not e usual self, and haf to go back for re-training, posted to a tense office environment.. if it was something xiong, maybe at e end of my service i still can sae i gain smth.. i might be fitter n hav a better shape n slimer.. now.. in office where eating is everyone's hobby except for me.. tat seem kinda hard..
guess i gt to be more hardowkring in going for runs n such.. but.. haiz.. i duno.. life seem stuck up dis yr.. felt like kanna jinxed every moment of my life.. something bad has always happen.. fine i had my own share of gd luck but tat was always followed by prolonged jinx... if in order to hav gd luck i hav to suffer so much.. i rather hav a simple life.. smoked out in e world of my own..
which is why my new yr resolution came.. dis morning after wat happen dese few days tat totally spoil my new yr mood.. tml doesnt even felt like an eve.. but more like 3 days left b4 going back to e "battlefield"
i jus hope my nxt yr would be a smooth one.. no gd fortunes is fine.. i dun wanan be jinxed like wat i am dis yr.. i can giv up abt luck in my love life (which is quite dwn anyway.. not tat it has ever improved).. all i wan is to be me, myself.. n a life not plagued by bad luck..
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