bleahz

haiz.. tonite gg back to hell le.. short trip back to earth comin to an end.. haiz.. but anyway dis weekend managed to get L'Arc-en-Ciel new album.. music not bad.. and oso managed to get Ayumi Hamasaki - my name's WOMAN mv.. real cool..chio sia..

haha anyway jus managed to squeeze tat many many thingy of mine into a wierd looking luggage bag.. haiz. it was all a mis-calculation.. i tot my log bag was big enuff.. but when i took it out.. my eyes almost pop out.. jus putting my boots in takes up almost e whole place.. plus e items we were told to buy, it is exploding le.. haiz.. so bo bian loh.. take tat ultra wierd looking luggage bag.. cos can extend one.. v shen qi but ugly oso.. lol.. aiyah better den nth rite.. a big log bag or back pack outside duno how ex sia.. geez.. nid to spend $$ again..

1st bookout from "hell"

After slacking a week.. i hav to face reality.. its time to see wat lies ahead.. as i sat at pasir ris waiting for tat crucial moment, i gt a sms from ben, my ex section mate.. he said he saw my name at e signal list..

WOO wat a freakin incident tat is.. (although at e bottom of my heart i do wish i was posted dere) as we wait in anticipation, finally its time for us to enter tekong.. somehow i really wish my posting is not dere.. which might means i am gg to e wrong place.. but tat was not to be.. i was posted to.. yes u guess it, e most infamous company well known for their strict and tekan antics.. its FOXTROT company..!!!!!!!! i cant believe my eyes.. even double check it.. yes i am in it.. FOXTROT.. argh~~!!!! hey but now tinking back, whu tat farker same name as me... freaky...

and i tell u, e sgt in dere are so different.. gt those kinda "hehe i am going to squeeze e balls outta u" face.. after pushing us up into e tunnel, we reach our new home (hell).. after waiting at e trainin shed and filling up some forms, e sgt said "fall in for lunch" hehe i tot wow maybe can slack for e day.. but b4 tat thought can even materalize one bit, it was chin-up regime for us.. yes e first thingy we did was chin up.. Zzz.. tat oso came our first "screwing" session.. "gentlemen.. ur pull-up are all fark up.. is dis e standard of BMT.." somewhere along tat line la.. den still sae wat expect us to pull 12 standard, hands straighten kind after e course.. siao la.. my 6 aready haf fark wan me do 12 standard..

and we gt our orientation tok by our OC.. (he really looks like a fisherman and i heard he always go catch crab.. recently we saw him bring back durians..) soon after was some safety and regimental tok n stuff.. b4 we even settle.. we gt our first navigation lesson le.. *snore*

okie wakie wakie.. now its time for a orientation run.. we ran ard e small compound once and they expect us to remember e entire sch when i dun even remember e names of our sgt and sir.. after tat was a lot of shitty stuff which i dun remember doing, probably lessons or watever.. and first day onli gt 15 min of admin time.. T_T oh yah and e toilet sux.. i miss my bmt toilet although dis time i dun nid to wash e toilet.. we gt 2 water cooler, one working and another which either come out hot water no matter how u flip e "cold" tap or jus dun come out water at all.. and a vending machine tat looks like a jackpot machine outta some 3rd class casino.. put one coin in may not hav a drink out.. next time put a coin, maybe gt 2 out.. WTF CANT THEY JUS CHANGE IT.. its so farking old anyway.. e neighbouring coy gt girl somemore sia.. tat platoon sure havoc.. hahaha

next day, when fallin in for breakfast, see other platoon aready wearing long 4 and drawing weapon aready.. phew lucky we onli gt lessons.. but on e other side of e coin.. in e weeks to come we would probably had all those cramped all in a few days.. stupid nav lessons.. worse den college days.. at least our lecture at most oso 1 hr 30 min.. dis one is farking 2 to 3 hrs long.. ZZzz... okie today was kinda better, at least we had more admin time at nite.. phew..

anyway time seem to crawl in sispec, lagi worse when compared to bmtc.. i miss my old bunk, my sgts, my toilet, even though i nid to climb 5 stories high.. (now on 4th doesnt make much diff oso) still tinking of my platoon mates and all e things we done tgt.. haiz.. here duno how long i can last.. jus a 4km endurance run and my knee ache e hell outta me.. cant even walk properly next day.. somemore gt SOC..

talking of soc.. v sian sia.. i am e weakest in my section if not platoon.. all capable of getting silver n gold, while i struggling to pass. SOC most cannot do one station.. i bloody cant cross 4.. duno will kanna screw like wat liao.. its v demoralising, and e atmosphere is always so tensed.. i tink i might collapse soon mentally.. haiz..

dis week oso done my first guard duty in sispec.. i swear i would nv ever sae guard duty is no kick.. gt screwed upside down.. hav to remember checkpt names and all e fark up procedere... gt and so easy to kanna extra duties when on guard duty.. no wonder dere is so few dates for guard duty.. e rest probably goes to those whu sign xtra..

and u tot e worse is over... it was rumoured tat our 3rd 4th and 5th week will be hell.. chiong sua whole day.. haiz... JIU MING ARH... really v stress ar.. worse den studying... hmm e onli thing tat would probably console me is.. somebody accompany me go watch initial D and war of e worlds lei.. v miserable lei.. dun wanan watch alone neither do i wanna miss those great shows.. Zzzzz....

cool cam..

e cam i am gg to buy someday.. some... dddaayyy~~~

aint dis cam real cool.. check it out.. e panasonic lumix DMC-FX7
gt another exactly similar one but better one DMC-FX8.. 7 is gd enuff for me though.. :P

Part 2...

my ultra cool boots.. hee..

and e activity i will miss most would be soccer~~!! look at my cool adidas shoes.. too bad i could onli managed to wear it once b4 gg back to camp.. and ystd soccer was boring too.. kinda bad start to a cool shoe.. hehe..

hehe last but not least my room.. my cosy (okie my mum always call it a pig sty though..) room where i will nv feel tired to nua (slack) in.. hmm maybe my little cooler fridge gt sth to do wif it.. but watever.. hehe.. n my collection of comics.. well most ppl sae my room dun look like a normal rm cos gt no visible bed and look more like a study room or play room.. tats y it is cool cant they see it.. more cosy tat way dun ya tink?? i am v proud of my rm.. although if i can afford it and e aircon pipe stop dripping, i would another 2 or 3 cupboard if it allows to buy more display items and of cos for my comic collection.. hmm dream on...

All ready to go part 1..

e drink i will miss..

as i start packing e super many items into my duffel bag and trying to squeeze everything in (of cos plus another field pack) i started to tink of many things.. many things tat i would miss..

first of all, will be my com.. i still cant get enuff dosage of my anime and manga.. esp when gundam seed destiny is reaching e peak, e climax of e story.. woo damn interesting i tell ya.. but well gd times dun last do they.. b4 long i am back to tekong again..

next will be dis blog which i realise i kinda addicted to.. this block leave i am constantly tinking of wat to put in.. it has been fun though although my blog looks kinda boring (T_T)

and of cos e drink i canot live w/o wif.. my fav carrot juice.. be it fresh or e pokka one u see above.. (actually i prefer e above one..:P) too bad they dun sell this in e canteen, (nv seen one in vending machine though.. hope a miracle can happen.. haha)..

To Be Continued...

Part 3...

all ready to go.. (as if..)

okie now for a brief explanation.. dun ya tink its strange y dis post is split into 3 parts???
no.. it wasnt meant to be dis way but i am not using any webhost for pics.. i use e hello application tat blogspot suggest on its help page.. as i am a no brainer for html codes, i decided to use dis application for my pics all along.. and for one reason or another (or rather i am lazy to go n explore) i cant seem to get all 3 pics in a post.. so dere u are.. 3 pics 3 parts..

dun my bag look huge.. wonder how i will drag tat into tekong tml.. anyway gotta enjoy my final moments.. see ya.. from now on dis blog may be updated onli once per week (might not even do so. cos i will be v lazy :P hey tats me..)

E countdwn begins..

tick-tock, tick-tock.. each time e clock ticks marks e passing second on my next journey of NS, e heart-stopping action (tekan-ning), e heart-breaking stories (more like body-breaking) and e ever exciting (perhaps more towards scary) days of SISPEC..

argh i am really scared.. (legs wobblin..) pray, pls pray no matter u buddhist, christian, catholic, muslim, watever.. pls pray tat everything will be smooth for me.. i will pray too.. although i am a free tinker.. but pls all whu visit dis site, pls wish for my well being..

hee sound really pathetic dun i??

well back to e usual stuff.. today's soccer kinda suck.. its like no one is interested.. no life no spirit no challenger.. hehe but gt to try out my new adidas shoe.. damn cool.. it gives me more control, more feeling compared to e old lotto shoe.. although didnt score much but it giv me a gd passing game today..

actually wanted to take a pic of my shoe.. but kinda lazy.. i still tink it is v style.. at least it is much more style den darryl's new shoe oso from adidas.. hehe and cheaper den his too.. :P

well dis is e 2nd last nite b4 i embark on my specialist journey.. everything jus dun seem rite for a reason or another.. everything seem downcast, dark, no life.. bleah...

jus hope tml will hav a more enjoyable day, although more den haf of e day will be ensuring i pack all my stuffs and left nth behind.. dun wanna get confined on e first weekend do i..??

last but not least.. pls, i beg, pls pray.. for e well being for e next intake of trainees for sispec.. (actually i dun even care abt others.. jus pray for me.. hee) :P

Posting Day..

finally dis fateful day has come.. where it determines how our NS life would be like.. while suffering from a lack of slp after watching tat wonderful brazil vs greece match, i gt awaken by "i like to move it move it.." hehe nice ringtone har.. my platoon mate msg me and ask me where i was.. he wanted me to go dwn to queenstown to a condo of another platoon mate.. (get to tat later) he oso told me tat posting can be accessed le.. in a haf aslp condition i on my com n check.. to my HORROR.. well although i quite expected to it.. i was posted back to tat fateful island... haiz..

e tot of tat 22km run, 32km run, e fire trench, self scrape, tekan, n lots of camo.. haiz.. HELP~!!!

haiz.. today i tot i was gg to play basketball.. after making my way dwn to queenstown, i end up spending my time playing games on e ps2 (i rather play at home n enjoy my final moments of Star Ocean 3) and doing really nth else.. argh.. ZZZzz i miss my room, my home...

anyway today jus sux.. haiz.. looking fwd to tml soccer and my final 2 miserable days left, (not much of public hols left and next long break will be b4 i oRD.. SIANZ... everything jus dun seem rite do they??) lets hope all goes well and dun go into xiong coy in sispec... pls let all be smooth sailing.. dese few days has been played ard by god.. lets hope dis does not go on or i will go bonkers.. and pls let my knee withstand e harsh conditions it gg to face in e days to come.. (oh man i really miss sch life.. PLS let dis 2 yr go fsater and let me go into uni fsater, get a new life...)

oh yah and my aircon turn its back on me.. kinda broke dwn.. so cool.. jus when i onli hav 2 more days of freedom wif nth to care abt.. oh man.. wat did i do to deserve dis.??

Adidas Day

today went to queensway.. gt new shoes and shirt.. hehe as u can expect from e topic, both are from adidas.. after tat long bang kwok siong taxi to city hall, den went pass e adidas shop.. and a moment of madness made me buy another adidas windbreaker.. woo damn shiok sia.. although i burn quite a hole outta my pocket.. i not sure why but i jus felt happi today.. it jus so mad.. spend like i nv spend b4.. i myself am stunned..

haiz.. tml will be e FATEFUL day.. our posting will be out.. argh feel so nervous and scary.. and after tat it will be onli a few days left b4 we report and back to our army life.. now all i can do is hope for e best..

anyway i tot dis up while i was on my way to queensway.. jus a little something to entertain myself..

::MY WISH LIST::

1) Adidas Jacket (dis i gt aready)
2) Kingdom Hearts : Chain Of Memories
3) Kingdom Hearts (completed e game but i wanna buy an original to keep)
4) Adidas track pants
5) GBA roms for disposal..
6) Ability to speak n read jap (if possible, overnite.. hehe yeah dream on..)
7) Anime games (across all consoles.. hee)
8) Digicam, probably D-Snap(seen in ayumi advertisement) or a panasonic lumix DMC-FX7 or DMC-FX2 (btw lumix is oso advertised by ayumi.. hee)
9) All e comics tat i havent buy will suddenly pop out in my cupboard
10) last but not least, a wonderful gal by my side..

hehe take note, these are not in any particular order.. will anyone complete my wish?? (onli idiots will do tat..)

oh yah i jus remembered, while i was eating at mac in queensway, i was served by dis cheerful lady (i dun wanna use e word old auntie as she is much cheerful den e younger ones wif stupid black faces like we own dem liddat).. and i do not know y i take a look at her name tag.. and WOW i tell u i am almost freaked out.. she has e same name as one of my (gd) friends. (gd is in brackets cos i really duno wats our relationship now.. she is e first gal tat made me do silly stuff, e first gal to make me lose slp, first gal tat i till now cant get her outta my mind..) wonder if heaven is playing a prank on me.. hey but dun u ppl start to flock dwn to queensway mac jus to find out e name of tat gd frd of mine ...

PS: i still miss ya a lots.. although we hav not spoke for quite some time..

check it out..

Just gt dis from qing feng.. lovely pic dun ya tink.. guess dis place.. hint: its really in sg.. thnx once again 4 e pic.. :P

Something real funni to share.. some comic strips.. thnx to sheng yuan, another baka buddy of mine.. click here to enjoy~

nice pic.. oh yeah and nice movie to intro..

Break ASS to OPEN

hehe wat a lovely sign dont ya tink.. actually gt tat from ystd booooorrring NE tour.. didnt spot tat sg flag till now though..

okie tat aside.. wanna intro another nice korean movie.. once again its in chi subtitles so i duno e real eng or korean name of it.. its 女老师 VS 女学生 (female teacher vs female student) as usual of korean movies, e humour is in dere. see how e female teacher and her student battle it out to win e heart of a new male art teacher. as they start to vend it out on one another, it breaks audience hearts to see e story unfold abt how lonely e student was and all she did was to gain e attention of her teacher.. hmm maybe sometimes we shld not take small little thingy for granted har..

NICE SONG by e ever wonderful BSB (my idol during pri sch days.. hehe)

BSB new album..

Intro-ing dis wonderful song.. subrashi~~

Backstreet Boys - Incomplete

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me i can't find no rest
Where i'm going is anybody's guess

I've tried to go on like i never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all i'm going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me i should carry on
But i am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I've tried to go on like i never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all i'm going to be is incomplete

I don't mean to drag it on, but i can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I've tried to go on like i never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all i'm going to be is incomplete
Incomplete

new blogskin

YEAH.. finally able to edit e dull looking thingy.. however e blogspot banner still dere and i having some prob wif e colors of e words in e sidebar.. can anyone teach me how to edit those??

NE tour.. tats rite.. national education tour.. bah~

can u believe it?? 40 over ppl (and tats onli my platoon) aged 19 yrs going on a NATIONAL EDUCATION tour.. omg.. okie.. to be fair the trip was interesting especially (actually onli) e changi chapel. e newater visitor centre is so boring i am sure anyone whu nids slp can go dere.. (deres a lovely melody chen stuck in e screen though) e johore battery (not sure abt spelling but it sounds tat way) is oso v boring.. other den a replica cannon, deres nth dere~!!! argh to tink i waste my time on these.. i rather continue playing my Star Ocean 3: Till The End Of Time on my ps2.. gg to complete e game soon le.. hehe.

e onli thing i gained is probably tat i saw BSB new album,.. looks cool, gg to get it somehow.. and of cos magadascar OST.. (I like it, move it move it.. U like it.. MOVE IT) hehe.. trying to get my hands on tat cool song.. oh yah gg to get my supper now.. v hungry after eating onli a miserable mac after missing lunch.. hmm tml.. if onli dere's someone to watch mr n mrs smith wif me.. (fat hope) :P

A crazy day out in sentosa

beautiful sunset..

woo after many repeated miss chalet outing in sentosa, i finally managed to go dere wif my bunch of buddies again ystd.. although we didnt managed to get a chalet but we stay dere nonetheless..

after all e fun stupid watever thingy we did in morning, we had dinner at sakae and my frds went drinking at nite.. it was e worst nite ever spent outside. 2 of them gt drunk and boy are they a nusicene.. it would be a gd comedy if we managed to flim tat stupid asshole.. jus becos a girl said "hi boys~~" in a little sexy tone he gt all screwed up.. always shouting sae wanan find e girl when it was aready 30 mins past.. after many pinning him down and throwing and hitting, he still make a ruckus.. guess he finally gt tired at 3 plus.. argh imagine us chasing him up n dwn e beach and dragging him back for 3 farking hours..

all in all i enjoyed myself except for e nite where i slpt for onli ard 4 hrs.. onli to wake up to find e drunkards more energetic den us.. duhz..

Feeling Blue............

On dis ultra-boring day (e onli thing i did was to buy 10 comics at a shot), i managed to watch a korean movie called "My boyfriend is type B". It is a v nice show (e girl inside is really kawaii~). managed to get it after some time but dun ask how. Its a comedy love story, quite typical of korean movies har?

If you haven notice, today my fonts are not in my fav orange but in blue, kinda reflect my feelings. I do not know y, neither do i noe how, i jus stumble across a pic of a couple. It immediately e blue feeling in me. e girl in e pic was someone whom was a v gd frd of mine. in fact to me, she was more den jus a frd, however dis she did not know. of cos e other guy in e pic was her boyfriend, someone by her side. Someone whu would comfort her when she was down, celeb wif her when she is happi and tat someone whom i nv be.. i tot i would be easy to let her go, afterall we did not do much tgt, i was so awfully wrong. When i am alone in e nite, i would be reminded of e times we spend chatting nonsense, e time when we would entertain each other. i noe i might sound sour grapes, but i really regret e things i could hav done.. i was afraid when i knew i kinda like her, when i saw her, i would pretend i didnt. It was stupid, i noe, but i cant help it. my heart was skipping a beat and i really duno wat i shld do. i guess i deserve it. It has been months, each n every passing day i told myself i can 4get her, (sounds like a drama har?) but its true.. i realised tat memory of her jus lingers ard although we did nth much except chatting on e net most of e time. If onli i could, i would like to spend another day wif her, i wanna share my joys, even if it is jus a frd. but i jus cant.. i cant find e courage to talk to her. i feel lost. e songs i hear remind me frequently of her.. songs like S.E.N.S - Wish, a song which i cant bear to take it off my mp3player.. i dunno wat i wan.. but i noe.. i really miss her a lot.

despite of how i feel, i noe she's more happi, she opened up more. enuff of all e sour grapes i guess.. to tat special ger.. all e best to ya. remember u still had a gd frd in me despite e many times u ignore me..

8 June, e day i left bronco wif B-E-A-U-Tiful memories..

POP LO hAvoC aR!!

POP LOH!!! WOOO!!!

finally e day we hav been waiting for.. POP!! although dis is a short week wif onli 3 days (and hell long it is..) it is v XIONG AR!!! well as usual we hav broke a new record.. or rather 2.. we were e first batch to do e 5 arms drill in POP (well duno tats a consolation but watever..) and we gt 6 rehearsals!! woo first ever batch to hav 6 rehearsal.. cool.. well we still mess it up during e march in though.. so u can guess how useful e rehearsals were..

anyway e day didnt really kick off to a gd start, wif a rehearsal in e morning which i cant be bothered to go into details cos it jus sux.. den jus when i tot i can rest.. BRONCO HEADS OUT. ALL BED 5 FALL IN NOW.. geezz.. how timely.. fine so i went dwn for e fatigue work.. guess wat.. WE HAV TO DE-RUST E FARKING CHIN-UP BAR.!!!!!! interesting aint it.. all of us are stunned, jaws dropped and even the sgt duno wat to do.. wat a joke.. following tat useless effort in de-rusting, viola go empty e dustbin area.. so i drag myself along and after tat.. STAND-BY AREA.. argh washing of toilet.. (well dis time i didnt wash though) hehe.. den after tat we fall in for POP.. finally it was e moment.. e moment i say gd bye to toilet washing in e morning at least for another 10+ days (pray tat i dun get toilet cleaner again next time)

den e stupid boring parade goes on and after tat everybody gone havoc.. (can see from photo) all was overjoyed.. we ignored instructions n threw our plt sgt jason and sgt jeremy up.. tat was e most crazy throw ever.. onli a few ppl wif little support below.. u can imagine how dangerous tat was. plt sgt jason overflipped, sgt jeremy landed on another recruit on e floor.. and of cos we were not spared e scolding.. sgt major came over n scolded us.. :P nvm tat we went back to our photo taking.. it was a pity though, our sgt zul was not wif us..

our morale was so high, even when taking our duffel bags, all was singing n screaming and jus making lotsa noise.. and of cos all rushing to get onto e ferry.. after saying our last gd byes, we depart from dere and all of us will go to diff places.. i gotta say i will miss plt 4, the best in BRONCO!!! all e gd times we had, all e stupid things we did, and of cos all e punishment we went thru.. from here on everything will be diff, next phrase will be more hellish, and here i hope all of my plt 4 mates can cope well and be happy.. CYA GUYS..

as a side notes, i gt e pics taken today uploaded into my com aready, those tat want them can come and ask me for it.. and i hope e other ppl whu gt e photos can oso share..

last but nt least, RO for tonite, 0515 reveille, 0530 fall in, 0545 - 0645 breakfsat.. yeah fark tat for e next 10+ over days.. WOOOO!!!! tonite lights out timing... NO TIMING>. hahahaha.. anyway stay fun dudes.. will miss ya.. *tears in eyes* :P

oh yeah, today i watch e 7pm show for e first time in 3 MNTHS.. woo chen song ling look so great..

School Undercover

hehe jus b4 i return to camp in abt 2 hrs time, i jus managed to watch finish dis korean show school undercover. not sure if it has been in e cinema or not yet but it is a gd show. enjoy it a lot. like all korean shows, e relationship between each character is so touching. has more touches of comedy in it though.. nevertheless enjoy it quite a lot. hope u ppl can catch it too..

POP!!!

heh.. heres a pic from TEENS. cant believe i actually bought e mag.

3 more days to POP and we are so happy ah~~
hehe finally passing out loh. morale super high. hehe. although dis week kinda sux, ppl coy admin we gt training.. when we gt admin time become do sai gang(fatigue work, service n support watever) haiz.. anyway its jus 3 more days.. 3 more days and i gt 1 and a haf week holiday.. 3 more days and i dun nid to wash e toilet every morning.. hurray.. haha

despite all e happiness in passing out, i am also worried abt next phrase.. hope wun get into something shitty. must really pray hard for me wor.

dis weekend v busy sia.. finally find a mp3 player and a video player for my phone. although e chi supoprt is still missing.. but not bad liao la.. finally it looks like a gd phone. haha still finding for gd games though.. if any of u gt any links, can tell me?? hontoni onegai-simasu~~ (sry if my jap is wrong. :P)

hmm so now my next aim is to further improve my blog. although i am hopless in the editing, but i will try hard. hope dis blog will hav a new appeareance soon.. look fwd to tat. even i am bored wif e appearance of my own blog.. look so dull. bleahZ!! signing off here.. sayonara while i prepare myself to book in later on in e evening for e last 3 days in BMT.