不想长大

was watching MTV feng shen bang convert jus nw..

den i saw e lyrics of S.H.E - 不想长大.. it jus leaves an impression in my head.. cos at tat pt of time gt e same feeling as what it potrays.. esp dis part..

"我不想我不想不想长大
长大后世界就没童话
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远都笨又傻"

i know e lyrics is a bit different cos is 没童话 instead of 没有花.. but e subtitles show e first one instead.. which suddenly leaves such an impression in my head..

looking at how complicated things ard me are now.. it leaves a sick feeling in my head.. if onli i can press a reset button..an return everything to zero.. to e most innocent n simple life..

haiz.. wake up to reality.. and shows i gt to plan duties for snobbish cpts within a few days due to heavy work clashes.. tml gt to work late again.. most likely stay overnite in office again.. but den again.. wats more fearful is the inability to tweak e excel file fast enuff to comd's liking.. jus tat tot alone.. hmm gt tons of fear rushing into me..

if i dun slp.. will tml nv come..??
if i wake up.. does it mean i m nearer to doom??

i wish i can jus burrow into e grd and pretend everything is fine..